A rough day

A lot happened yesterday. I talked to my advisor about The Future and he told me that he thinks I will be ready for the job market in September. He wants me to work hard on getting a rough draft of everything done by the fall. He says it's better if I don't get a summer job but instead take out loans or find some other way to live without income.

I hadn't been planning to do everything so soon, so my head was spinning from all of this. Future stress, money stress. At the same time, I was rushing to get ready for an interview with an Important Person. I had written to ask if he would be willing to be interviewed for my dissertation, and he wrote back, "Why don't you stop by my office tonight?" So I had to run home and throw an interview together in an hour,

and then when I got home I got an e-mail from my mother, letting me know that a relative had died unexpectedly. The mother of my little cousins died. I had to pull it together and write my interview questions, then I got ready fast and started running to get there in time.

The interview went well, actually. He was great, very kind and helpful, and I got everything I need.

I got home and finally let myself cry. I couldn't sleep last night. There was so much on my mind. I finally fell asleep early this morning, then woke up exhausted and with the worst cramps ever. Today has not been very productive. I tried to deal with one thing and it became a stressful mess of miscommunication. I didn't even eat til 4. I just feel so drained and sad and sore.

Now I'm just on my couch, drinking hot tea and watching American Idol... I think I'm just going to take the night off and start over tomorrow.